YES I'm still alive and NO I haven't been abducted by creepy old folgies

Hello, readers!

I hope all of you are doing well! Its been I'm not exactly how long since I've posted anything without very large angry words so lol I'm here to let you know I'm alive and kicking alhumdulilah. I've been having a very poopy week and insha'allah it will get better? I don't know, whatever I hope so because I think I'm starting to loose my sanity.

Heres this week's events:

1. I puked 4, count that, 4 times this week! why? because I clearly thought I had an adult system and thought I could pull off take Tylenol extra strength when I can't take anything over 250mg anyway! lol yeaaaa it was pretty sick... lol I was at work sweating and shivering and poopin' and pukin'!! lol {this should totally be an ad to get married right?}

2. I effing forgot about an astronomy quiz that was due on this past Saturday! totally discovered that this morning along with discovering that I have 2 quizzes and an exam due as well... yeaaa online classes can kiss my happy black ass, okay? okay.

3. BABY SHOWER THIS WEEKEND!!! YAY! So, I had bought all of these super cute baby clothes until I realized people were getting things off of the registry, soooo yeaa took then back and Friday I'll go to Target and find some AWESOME! and super adorable... :) yay! a lil cutie!

So, there's an update on my happy lil life (totally not sarcastic here), insha'allah I'll be posting a few more times within the next 70 - ish hours so, enjoy today because you never know-- you could be poopin and pukin and yelling in pain at work, embarrassing yourself in front of patients!! lol yall know that was funny! you can laugh, I'm alive so its all good!

Salaam!

Keeping Shaytan Away One Facebook Message At A Time

So, on Facebook there's a group called "Ahadith a Day Keeps Shaytan Away". Its so clever its awesome. So, anywho I'm on FB checking my Ahadith of the day and this one pops up:

45. Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said, "The strong man is not one who is good at wrestling, but the strong man is one who controls himself in a fit of rage.''
[Al-Bukhari and Muslim].

Commentary: This Hadith instructs oneself to keep in control in order to overcome his rage.

This hadith touched my heart in ways I couldn't believe. I have a temper that could top some spoiled brats at times and my struggle since for the past year or so has been controlling my anger. I don't get violent or anything like that really, I just say some really nasty things and this hadith just erased any excuse I could've had for my temper.

Unbelievable.

Allah Sent...

So, the other day I had the craziest dream. I feel like maybe Allah was trying to tell me something.
So check this out:
So, I was going to Jummah and I was chillin' exchanging some 'salaams' with some sistas, but when I was talking an older sista she ask me why I didn't observe hijab. I said that I wasn't sure if my imaan was strong enough to exude a good Muslim. she says that, you believe in the shahada, you believe in Islam right? I said yea, of course. she's like, "well whats stopping you? Allah knows your intentions. Don't let shaytan make you doubt you imaan."

DEEP

I woke up stunned. I felt like I knew what to do, but I was floored. This is the most forward "message" I've ever gotten in my entire life. When I converted, it was more of an emotional revelation than say... dream direct revelation I guess you could say.

I know what I have to do....

I just feel like I don't know where to start.... or when.