Stuck at work, thinking about Jimmy Choo

Today was a very important day...


Today was the premiering of Jimmy Choo's line with H&M...


I was going to go to H&M today and look/buy Jimmy Choo accessories...


I got called into work...


I'm still here...


I don't even want to go to H&M anymore...


Poop.

Eww its rainy and moist and I have to work after class...

BOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

WARNING: this post is quite random.

Yesterday was Labor Day, which for me is another random holiday that some random person thought was necessary. I don't know it even matters when a majority of the businesses were open ANYWAY. Kinda contradicts the purpose of laboring individuals resting right? Whatev... anywho, I had THE MOST AMAZING TURKEY BURGER EVER. it was so tasty. made yesterday a billion times better.

Also, I spent WAY WAY WAY WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY too much money within the past five days thanks to school starting and my ever-changing body that won't fit into clothes that are already in my closet. 

I did on the other hand get my own brand spanking new laptop a week ago, so Insha'allah I'll be able to post more and hopefully I'll have the strength to make them more detailed and less time wasters for those of you who regularly check.

OH OH OH and guess what folks - I have (whats that now?) 25 FOLLOWERS! lol 25 is a fav number of mine... don't know why, but yea pretty effing awesome if I say so myself. :D

So, I'm done wasting you time now. Insha'allah I'll be back to fasting and I'll be able to let yall know if I died or not lol.

HAPPY FASTING! 

Love,

Dedra

The longest rant known to man

Hello readers,
I'm pumped.
I'm pumped because Ramadan is two crappy nights of sleep away and it will be the highlight of this week that has been unnaturally stressful.
WARNING: LONG RANT AHEAD.
First, the woman who birthed me said the most disgusting and hurtful comment to me that I have ever heard in my life. I have my secrets that only a few select people know and the only reason they know it is because I just got comfortable discussing it about a few years ago. This secret should not be thrown in my face by the person who created that issue and therefore made me keep it a secret in the first effing place. My whole resentment issue with the woman is because of the secret that she decideded she would throw in my face and say that I was mentally ill because this secret.
And as if she didn't humiliate me enough she says that I am playing Muslim...
Why?
Because of the way I talk to her.
I don't talk to her.
Because I don't like her.
I don't like her because she says things to hurt me and she's been doing it for years.
Therefore, when I get pissed, words (of which are true and harsh) splash of out my mouth faster than the waters in Louisianna.
So, because I don't like her and I talk to her the way she talks to me (seeing if I decide to talk to her), I am playing Muslim.
Now, I'm not a perfect Muslim, that's not my goal. My goal is to please my God .... but don't insult me and the one thing that is keeping me sane and that is my deen.
My deen is the reason why I am so calm typing this as we speak.
My deen is the reason why I haven't disappeared in the middle of the night to get away from her.
Hell, my deen is the only reason why I am happy.
So, why say I'm a fake?
The woman wanted to hurt me. I never tried to hurt her even though years ago I would have loved to, but I haven't.
whatever. But she hurt me. effing ridiculous is what this is.
Then, my brother, bless his heart, is upset because me and the woman don't get along. I understand that... we're his only family, but his expectations are TOOOOOOO high. He's asking for conversations and hugs. I don't even think I've hugged the woman before. Let alone said 'I love you'. I know he means well and I didn't ask him to choose sides, I want him to understand.
Now, before anyone person goes on to say how haram it is to disrespect your parents and junk... I'll let Allah handle it. How Allah wishes to treat me because of my lack of respect towards the woman will be up to Allah, NOT YOU. I already know, I've always known just like all humans know. So, don't judge me because it.

Alhumdulilah, Ramadan is coming soon and it is the perfect time for me to reflect on the things that have been happening before I converted. Insha'allah, I will come to terms with a couple things.
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I've also decided that I'll continue posting during Ramadan because I remember when I was secretly reading Muslim blogs (like Ange's) and was trying to get some type of look into what this deen is really about, reading blogs really helped a lot because it's a person giving their continuous realistic living of Islam. I just keep thinking there's a curious person whose wondering what the heck Ramadan or they are thinking of converting and they need answers, so I'll keep a weekly post of my first Ramadan.
Insha'allah, I'll be answering questions of those who are secretly following. :)

Periods Suck...

But at least I get to wear nail polish...

No...

That still doesn't help.

EFF.....

I TOTALLY JUST HAD A REVELATION!!!!!!!!!!

SO I'M WRITING IN THIS LARGE, UNNECESSARY FONT BECAUSE I'M EXCITED ABOUT MY FUTURE - OF WHICH IS RELATED TO MY REVELATION... SO YES, THIS IS A GOOD THING WHICH WOULD MAKE THIS NECESSARY TO USE LARGE, UNNECESSARY FONT! I KNOW THAT WAS A RUN-ON SENTENCE AND ME SAYING THAT THE FONT IS UNNECESSARY BUT IS NECESSARY MAKES NO SENSE, BUUUUTTTTT GUESS WHAT?!
THAT'S WHAT I DO.
SO, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH MY FINANCE DEGREE OR WITH A COLLEGE EDUCATION IN GENERAL AND I THINK I'VE GOT IT!
ITS BETWEEN OPENING AN ISLAMIC BANKING INSTITUTION IN THE MIDWEST OOOORRRRR BECOME A MUSLIM PARTY PLANNER!!!!!
SOOO!? WHAT DO YOU THINK!!? I NEED TO KNOW!!

OH what's that Mr. Gadget, a Muslim paying taxes? Blasphemy!

So, I was snooping around my favorite website, Muslim Matters, and they had posted something about a particulary website that I thought was really halarious.
Loon Watch is a website that shows all this Tom-foolery called Islamaphobia. It's quite halarious. The satire paired with awesome journalism makes Islamaphobia seem like a game that some kids made up on a rainy day... wait a second, IT WAS WASN'T IT?! But anyway, lol, I was reading an article that made me giggle that was about some dude named Steve Emerson.
Here's a clippet of zee article:

Steven Emerson: “Wowser!”
Posted on 06 May 2009 by Garibaldi

Steven Emerson, a pillar of the Islamophobic movement, promotes himself as an “Investigative journalist” exposing terrorism and the supposed “fifth column activities of American Muslims” through his Orwellian organization, The Investigative Project. He claims, just as his counterparts Douglas Farah and Joe Kaufman do, that all his work is done in defense of America and in order to safeguard the homeland. Yet his claims are as mendacious and exaggerated as the other two.
He is simply the progenitor of some of the vilest, most imbecilic anti-Muslim hysteria on the inter-net and in America today. This is the case because more often than not he is so off the mark in his accusations and conclusions that it makes you wonder why anyone would take him seriously as a so-called “Investigative Journalist.”
His hunt to “expose” American Muslims is almost akin to watching an Inspector Gadget cartoon because of its hilarity if it weren’t for the fact that at least Inspector Gadget was sincere and actually solved a case or two. Unfortunately, it looks like Emerson lacks the high tech gadgetry that was at the disposal of Inspector Gadget and that might show him the error of his ways or at the very least help him get his foot out of his mouth.
Instead of using a magnifying glass to look for evidence, Emerson’s technique of choice is to make up the evidence as he goes along, Andy Birkey of the Minnesota Independent notes:
Emerson has a long history of getting into hot water over his anti-Muslim rhetoric. In the 1998 nuclear standoff between India and Pakistan, Emerson fed reporters with an informant who said Pakistan was set to strike India with a nuclear weapon. The media eventually found the informant to be unreliable - but not until international media had used Emerson’s source and intensified an international crisis.
In 1990, he was accused of plagiarism in his writings about Pan Am 103.
….
He sued a Florida paper after it published reports that he was supplying reporters with documents he said were from the FBI. The Florida Weekly Planet reported that the documents were frauds and Emerson sued. When he couldn’t substantiate his claims, he withdrew the lawsuit.
Emerson once claimed that an extremist Muslim group put out a hit on him and that the FBI offered to put him in a witness protection program. The FBI denied that claim.
In 1995, right after the Oklahoma City Bombing, Emerson was quoted on air stating that he believed the bombing showed “a Middle Eastern trait,” he came to this conclusion because according to him it was done “to inflict as many casualties as possible.” Wowser!

Read the rest here.

oh yea, I'm at work and I'm on Polyvore... again.

So, I'm anxious for school to start and I can't stop thinking of fall fashion... THE BEST FASHION! The varying textures, mixing of colors, and of course the reimergence of HEELS. Yes... drool...

Drool fest #1:

Ugh, I wish it was fall by Roshan88 featuring Rupert Sanderson shoes

So, I LOOOOVE grey compiled with contrasting colors. mmmMMMmmm it makes me smile. I like wool too, it just makes my skin burn.

Drool fest #2:

Untitled by Roshan88 featuring Christian Louboutin shoes

Need I say more? The random desk/table thing, I just thought that was sweet lookin' and I wanna go furniture shopping.