Sunday, August 30, 2009

Ramadan/Jihad experience

Salaam readers,
I hope you all are having a blessed and successful Ramadan.
I have been having some struggles during my first Ramadan and last night they were really bothering me, so when I woke up I opened to the Quran (alhumdulilah). 
Every time I wake and open the Quran (alhumdulilah), I pick a random place to read because something may be on my mind or I want to leave the house with something peaceful in my mind. So, today this is the passage I bumped into::
Sura 31. Luqman (The Wise):
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Alif Lam Mim:
These are Verses of the Book of Wisdom-A Guide and a Mercy to those who do good- Those who establish prayer regularly, and give charity regularly, and have (the truest) belief in the Hereafter. These are (the people truly) guided by their Lord; And these are the ones who will prosper. And from mankind, there are, those who buy useless talk, without knowing (the meaning), to mislead (others) from the Path of Allah and to make lowly jokes (about Allah's path): For them there will be a demeaning penalty. And when Our signs are rehearsed to such a one (person), he turns away with (empty) pride, as if he did not hear them, as if there was deafness in both of his ears: So, announce to him of a (very) painful penalty. Verily, for those who believe and work righteous deeds, there will be Gardens of Joy, To live therein. HIs, the promise of Allah is true: And He is the Almighty and All wise. He has created the heaven without any pillars that you can see; and He set mountains standing firmly (on the earth) in case it should shake with you; And upon it He has spread beasts of all kinds. And We send down rain from the sky, and We made on the earth every kind of noble creation to therein.
 
I would continue on, but I would be putting the whole Sura on here. 
But anywho, so my main reason of posting this is because yesterday, twice people that I knew insulted my deen to my face. It was frustrating because Dedra's non-Ramadan reaction would to share a few choice words on their ignorance and arrogance, but instead I just let it go, but there are 3 main things that just rubbed me the wrong way and I just had to read my Quran just to clear my mind of any horrifying thoughts that could be floating. And just to make this clear, when I say horrifying I mean cruel and sinful, as in violent lol.
1. I was told it was my fault for fasting.  Reaction: stupid... thats like saying its someone's fault for observing Lent which is obviously very important and is done in order to please God.
2. An acquaintance of mine told me that their friend told them that it says in the Quran that fish were created from the sperm of the Prophet Mohammed when he saw an attractive woman. Reaction: Doesn't that contradict the concept of God creating ALL things? Every specimen on this planet. How is a human going to create a creature that Allah (SWT) created before hand? It just doesn't make sense. Not only that, what Quran is this guy reading?
3. This same random guy said that the Prophet Mohammed made up everything in the Quran. First, that would contradict that ridiculous statement above. Second, that's insulting, its disrespectful and ignorant. Thats like saying Musa (Moses) just made up those 10 commandments. Thats like saying The Torah was thought up by conspiracists. I mean seriously, with all of the similarities of Islam and Christianity, you would think people would at least realize the stupidity that they say before they actually say it. 
**sigh** 
I'm still learning so much about my Deen and people disrespecting me, my deen, my prophet, and my God all in one day is a bit much for my first Ramadan is overwhelming, but I guess thats why Jihad is a blessing right? Subhan'Allah.  
Keep me in your du'as as I continue on with Ramadan. 
w.salaam
Love,
Dedra

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Congratulations for keeping your temper. May Allah shower you with blessings and ease your Ramadan for your effort. This year has been a bit tough for me---Allah has decided its time to up the bar---last year went too easy!!!

God has no needs---it matters not what we do or don't do---God gives us guidance out of his compassion and mercy. This guidance is for our souls. It is the path that shows us how to become "God-aware"---that we are always connected to God, and it is only a matter of us being aware of this fact or not. God guides whom he pleases---and those of us who have opened our minds and hearts to this wonderful guidance are truly blessed.

Dedra said...

Thanks, I'm shocked I lasted this long in regards to my temper, but it does show me that it is humanly possibly for me to control myself.

Anonymous said...

oh sis, people in general can be piggy.u knoe like my parents actually tell not to cover or lower the gaze!!! and then now i am studying here in usa!!! and theyve started doubting my character!!!!!so wonderful aint it???? the contradiction...lol...i think Allah is the only one who can really know ur intentions. i mean imagine trying to do the right thing and whatever way you go people are everywhere judging you. i was just listening to a nasheed by yusuf islam and i normally lower my gaze so a guy(nonmuslim) looked at me as if i was a huge hypocrite!!!i have people here thinking i lower my gaze/cover cuz i think i am se**!!!!
i mean cmon man...how stupidly judgemental is that!!!!!????
Rubber

Anonymous said...

lol sis i am so sick of being judged by my parents, my teachers, my friends, classmates...so tired. like when i started being shy and stuff-people actually started thinking i have a sick mind. my mother said she suspected i had committed adultery. she didnt even say sorry.my father on one hand discourages me to cover; on the other hand doubts my character. wonderful eh?????I WOULD SO LOVE EVERYBODYS BUTT. i know. i know. respect ur elders. but when they are so dirtly judgemental...i mean man jihad it is tough.and most wonderful thing is i lower my gaze from my male teachers and my class fellows think i think the teacher is attractive . lol. and when i dont do it...they think bad stuff abt me...i mean CMON MAN.no matter what i do seems evil to them all. i AM LIKE MAN SHUT UPPPPP!!!!
Rubber.

Anonymous said...

lol sis....PRAY FOR MOI.
Rubber.

Dedra said...

lol sis i trust you will be fine. the silly judgings of your family... blow them off. thats how you will excel. Thats the only way i can figure things out. people here in the USA are the most judgmental and contradicting people you will ever meet. haha and i'm being seriously honest. i'll keep you in my du'as but some advice b/c i worry about you sis:::
Laugh off the crazy people and they'll be confused. lol that tends to happen b/c they think they are right. whatever lol. you faith will be your repelent to whatever ridiculous ignorance you face... if you allow it to - especially here in the West.
I love you for the sake of Allah sis. :)

Anonymous said...

love u too, sis. we are reading this amazing over pg rated novel... and everybody keeps checking my reaction. but the strange thing is i met some christian guys here who behave very well.
u sissy.

Anonymous said...

i meant i would so love to kick soembody in the buttt. sorry for the typo. lol. shows how distracted i am.
Rubber.

Anonymous said...

i dont know why i typed "u sissy"
Rubber

Anonymous said...

i dunno sis...frankly speaking...ur parents can really destroy you if they want. They really can. Its cuz they have so much control over your emotions. I means you can be the best person and they can really mess the brain up. Its weird how much control they can have on you and even the way they think. Mostly, we do not question what our parents and teachers FEED us.

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